Please pray for my husbands soul and for me to accept his death

I lost my husband of 35 years last year and I am so devastated. I don’t think I can ever accept that he’ s gone. I don’t want to live anymore without my husband but my son has cancer and he still needs me. I’m so distraught and don’t know what to do with my life. Please help me pray for guidance and comfort in this very difficult time of my life. Thank you everyone.