I am very depressed. It has been an awful year health wise, and we are about to get a huge financial hit with loss of work. I have two kids with medical needs. One with yearly procedures in the thousands. Lately I have been thinking about dying and it might be better for me. I look around and don’t understand how people keep going. I have tried to make the best of the hand that has been dealt, but it is getting too hard. I have no answers. I don’t know how to make it better. My kids are the only reason I am still here.