I am alive because of my fear and love of God. I am alive because I don’t want to give my children the memories and trauma that I had in my childhood. Otherwise my heart is so broken and unrepairable. I am a shell of the person I was.
I found out that my husband of over 3 decades has been having over 150+ affairs for the last 10 yrs with men and women. This is out of character of who the world thought he was. I am staying with him because of my children and again not wanting to give them any of the heartache and trauma I had my whole childhood. I know most won’t understand. We have no family and I would have nowhere to go anyway. I work and so does he. We built a good life. I had no idea he was throwing it away. He is in counseling (Christian based). He is doing everything and anything to help, but it isn’t enough honestly. There is so much more to tell along with reasons and thoughts and facts. I just need as much prayer as I can find. I also haven’t told anyone about any of this except for the counselor. My kids adore their father and always had pride in their parents marriage. I am beyond broken