I have recently been diagnosed with skin cancer. Not melnoma so I am thankful for that but I am still very scared. My mind goes to the worse case scenario and I can’t get it out of that mode. I feel like God won’t help me. I feel like he will make it bad just to punish me because I have a difficult relationship with him and feel like he won’t help me because of it. I know I’m not worthy or deserving of his help but I don’t want to be sick and die. I don’t feel like I can share this with anyone except anonymously because I am ashamed and scared beyond what most normal people would consider rational. I am also fearful that my doctors aren’t competent and that worries me. I am sure they are but I’m uneasy. I’m a mess. I just want this to be resolved. I hate feeling this way.